Palaisdaan had to end somehow. I was sad. The resort had become our little getaway, our honeymoon, ours. It was costing money and we left Bukidnon at lunch time. I drove at 120 kph. The man was holding on for dear life. Lunch was at Steve’s and he claimed he hasn’t been there. Really.
“Hun, didn’t we just had something grilled last night?” He almost complained.
“But you’ll love it here. Everybody eats here.”
He looked at the menu. “It’s still chicken.”
I rolled my eyes and gave the waiter our orders. “Chicken or not, they really –”
“– Hun, my girlfriend in Thai has been texting me.”
The fact that he cut me off and the mention of the Thai girlfriend in one time didn’t make me happy. “Why?”
He said that he broke off things with her. He showed me one of her text messages.
“I cannot believe the only thing that I held dear is fading right before me.”
He said, “Last time I heard she took something and woke up somewhere else. You should have given me time to mourn over that but where am I? With you.”
I didn’t look at him. I knew it was a lie. I feel like I know him so well to tell if he was saying the truth or not. Chewing became an activity that I hate to do. I pushed the food around my plate while he talked.
“It’s over. She sent all my things to my friend’s house. She burned my hot cars collection, hun. It took me years to collect those.
I shrugged. Whatever. None of that meant anything. He could easily just have given me some sob story, for me to sympathize, to believe that there is really nothing more for him there in Thailand.
Okay, maybe this must have been confusing, but he does have a girlfriend in Thailand. She is the real threat hun, were his words. Why? Because they have been together for quite some time now.
That’s the thing with Sam. He met Mary, same as my favorite name, in Thailand three years ago and hooked up. Then he left Thailand and went to Malaysia. He met June. He fell in love with her or whatever that means to him. Mary found out and broke up with him. Then he got back to Thailand and Mary. June found out – broke up with him and vice versa. It’s just like saying, wherever fate takes him, he manages to meet somebody and screw up the relationship he had with the previous one. So I asked him the reason for that.
He answered, “We all live in one cell. Eventually, we would get to meet all kinds of people, interact with them, even hook up.”
I fell silent. I had to argue. I just knew that I had to. You can meet people. You do interact. But it all boils down to choices. You choose which person to interact with. You have the option whether to hook up or not. You have the propensity to avoid situations that might jeopardize any good thing that you might have present.
But I didn’t. That’s another thing with Sam. I can’t argue just because he is older. He is always right. That might prove to be a bad sign in this relationship but for now, I just shut the fuck up. It is too early in a relationship to argue, to have problems. But who am I kidding? It’s always best to find out earlier. But again, like I said, I just shut the fuck up.
I could always say that what if that happened to me. I’d leave. Go somewhere. Somewhere where I need to be in. Stay there for a year. Meet someone. Fall in love. What will he think? Will he still say that since we all live in one cell, its very likely that that will happen? *stifle a snort*
Okay. Exaggerated. But it can happen. And he has been telling me to grow up – which by his definition – is to make mistakes, even fall in love, anything. He is giving me five years to do that. And then by the time comes, then he’ll be the perfect gentleman who’ll save the day and whisk me off. Where? I don’t have a clue. Hahaha. Funny. Five years – 60 monthsaries. How endearing.
And my friend Mitz said that just because you’re still young doesn’t mean that growth will stop when you’re 29 years old. True. Maybe I don’t exactly have the same thing that he has gone through but his generation is different from mine and we learn life differently – not the conventional way he has learned to live in since he has known life.
What am I babbling about is beyond me. I can’t even understand myself either. What just ticks me off is the fact that he thinks just because he is older, it gives him the authority to be IT.
And the IT people I know are gay. Lol.