The absence may have been a question long asked since day one. Of course, when instincts are very strong but the need to prove yourself wrong is stronger, you always lose that argument inside your head. Those instincts will forever be gone out of the door anyway. Because you hope. Because you wish that things might be different in the long run. Because you were just hoping too much from something that doesn’t even give you any glimpse of changing.
Sam leaving for Thailand had been hard because he hardly texts or calls which was never a surprise anyway. I sometimes catch him whenever I’m online and I remember him saying that he will be back.
“Then what’s taking you so long?”
“Hun, there are stuff here that I need to work on… from my previous job to the Embassy.”
That was his one good reason for making me wait that long. Two weeks…
…three. I started to get worried.
“I need time, hunbun. June 26. If I’m not home… you can look for someone else.”
Easy for him to say. Until my friendster started getting all these messages.